Back in my freshmen and sophomore years, I always thought that my life was perfect. I used to assume that everything's going the way things should be. But, believe me, nothing's perfect. And my life has proved it. I thought I have everything, from good grades to good boyfriend to good family to good life. Can you spell it: P-E-R-F-E-C-T? But look, something's missing. Right?

I realized that nothing's absolutely perfect. I don't have the perfect bikini body, the perfect angelic face, not even the perfect elite life. Yes, I thought everything's perfect not until I realized that I don't have my friends. Wait! Omit the word "my". Funny as you think. But, what is life without friends, right? What is high school without fun?

I've never even dared to drink or sip a bit of alcohol. (Well you know, I sometimes wanted to, but thinking about how alcohol can affect my behavior. Geez. The hell I care.) I haven't smoke, not even a try. I never dared to go home late with friends. I never even had the chance to take college entrance exams with a bunch of friends not even the chance to submit applications with them. I haven't gone with them to movies. I had no sleep over memories 'coz I haven't experience one. You know what, there's so much more to discover about me.

I exactly know the feeling of being alone. I found real friends when I reached my senior year. It's like, I've wasted all my time on my high school years concentrating on one single thing or passion alone. All this years, I wanted to feel loved and happy with a bunch of friends. I wanted to feel the care of TRUE friends. I do believe that they're rare to find. I do believe that life is nothing without friends. I'm not Anti-Social or anything. Maybe, I'm still the old fashioned teenager. I would always choose to stay at home than enjoy my weekends with friends. I would rather watch movies alone or with my auntie than watch one with them.

I know, there's so much more to remember on your teenage years than mine-aside from occasional heartaches. I bet you're going to tell me that I'm pretty KJ and sarcastic. But, I'm actually not. Maybe, I'm too picky with my friends. I'll avoid them if I don't like what they did or said. I'm always the opinionated girl who would always say what's on her mind.

I know how it feels to date a guy. SWEAR. I've experienced that! I know how to heal a broken heart. I know how to surprise a guy and to make him cry because of happiness. But for now, since, I'm not in a relationship with someone, I was able to manage my relationships with my college friends, my new found circle of friends. I was able to appreciate people more. To keep my mouth shut when needed. To speak my mind when I have to. To laugh with all the stupid jokes and mistakes!

Now, I feel glad that my life isn't perfect. And I would rather not want it to be one.