He has always been the reason of my pain. WE used to talk a lot on the phone this past few weeks. We had a lot of petty fights. Yes, we do fight A LOT. We've been to a lot of good times and bad times. He has been my crying shoulder when my world is falling apart. He has been the best boyfriend(never mind the looks) ever despite of all the pains he have caused me.

But things aren't really perfect. We just can't be perfect. We just can't be the same old "Karl and Tinie" who used to be patient with each other. We're both struggling to be with each other. We're both fighting for each other. We're actually doing it better this time. But still, the pain never went away. But we're madly, deeply in love? What's the point of giving up? Right?

There are also times when we actually want to give up. Why? Because we're together for three years and we haven't seen each other again. Our relationship has always been in a rocky state, that no matter how much we try to give up and surrender, we would always be fighting and fighting and fighting for each other. We would always be running towards each others' arms while saying how much we wanted to stay together.

We actually had each other through the test of time. We've been to a lot of trials. I told you. You don't know how painful it was for me to keep everything as a secret. You don't know how many liters of tears that fall each time we fight. You don't know how patient we are not to run away from home just to see each other. You don't now everything.

We actually wanted the whole world to know everything about us. But this is our relationship. It's not between everyone and I but it's always between HIM and ME. Karl and Tinie. We could have been the perfect couple. We could have been very much, madly, deeply in love. Sounds redundant? That's how love is. Redundant yet it's true. If I'm going to be questioned why do I feel this way after all the pains, then probably, you would assume that Love is reaaaaalllly BLIND. But Love isn't blind after all. It's just that I know how to forgive and I've accepted all his flaws that's why I love him.

Now, tears are really falling. How I wish, I'm outside the house while the rain keeps falling on my head. This reminds me of the lyrics of the song: " Raindrops keep falling on my head...". I'm not really sure about the title. But I think, it is already the title of the song. What else can I say? It's not the raindrops that keep on falling. It's the tears that keep my eyes on turning red.

I know words are not enough to tell them everything. I know we cannot go back to the times when we started having that puppy love. I know things are very different now. What else can I say?

Things are over now. We could have been the perfect couple. We could have been PERFECTLY TOGETHER.